Long term symptoms from Swine Flu. Genetic Hip Disorder. Chronic Pain

Nightstand Contents

1. Lamp

2. Gratitude Diary- about this I have mixed feelings, as it seems too purposively positive

3. Cream- for pain

4. Foot cream- almost empty

5. Hand lotion- share with my husband

6. Lube- because even crippled old ladies, such as myself, have sex.

7. Bowl- made by my long deceased mother-in-law, which houses a heavy stone egg (I hid it here when G. was a toddler & worried she’d drop it on her foot.)

8. Cookie fortune- reads- Life is a series of choices, today, yours are good ones.

9. hair clip

10. Pill- unidentified.

11. Pill bottle- Tramadol stash—not my usual supply which is in with other meds but my back up in case I have to detox and don’t have enough (yes, paranoid.).

12. Scuplture-by Patricia Pearce, a local artist I much admire. A boat shape cast from a leaf resting on a chunk of rock—it speaks of migrants, seeking asylum, fleeing war and climate change. It asks the question I ask myself…am I going anywhere? Or am I stuck here in my chronic pain and lack of mobility? How far can I get? Or am I just floating towards my death, rudderless on a restless sea?

Nightstand Two

13. Two weights

14. Lamp

15. Alarm clock

16. Hair brush

17. Bowl

18. Stack of CD’s