Heart Defects. Cardiac Arrest at Age 12. Pace Maker. Chronic Migraines. Fibromyalgia. Hypothyroidism. Chronic Fatigue. Depression. PTSD.


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Nightstand Contents

1. Tray

2. Ceramic Bowl

3. Weekly medication organizer.

4. Night Mouth Guard-I grind my teeth.

5. Sleepy Cream- From Lush.

6. Migraine Oil- From Wellington Apothecary, NZ.

7. Tablets- Codeine 60mg

8. Tablets- Paracetomol.

9. Handcream.

10. Mug of water.

11. Lamp.

12. Miniature porcelain chihuahua-my dog, Opal is my best friend in the whole world and has really helped me find purpose amongst the sickness.

13. Vase.

14. Plant-I am currently trying to propagate many house plants, I don't have that much room left, my lounge looks like a jungle.

15. Drawer filled with medications- Much like my illnesses, on the surface my nightstand looks well looked after and organized, but its the inside that really tells the true story. This draw is a mess of medications-anti-nausea medication, heart medication, migraine medication, asthma puffers, morphine tablets, nail files, electrolyte sachets, heat cream, anti-inflammatory cream, eye drops..the list goes on. Juggling so many health problems means I take a plethora of drugs.

16. 2 Books-The Handmaids Tale, by Margaret Attwood-re-reading this incredible book while I watch the tv show. It's amazing how relevant a book written in the mid 80's is right now.

Playing Dead, by Elizabeth Greenwood-I am a true crime addict and find the idea of faking your own death fascinating. I would never fake my own death but this book has been a fascinating read about the many (mainly men) and their shortcomings when they try to skip our on their lives.


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On my bed (a chiropractor approved bed with thick memory foam topper pad) are the four different sized pillows I require to sleep comfortably. 


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Nightstand 2 Contents

17. 3 bottles of perfume.

18. Houseplant

19. Radio- Listening to podcasts has become vital for me when I'm particularly unwell, they help me feel like my time in bed isn't wasted. After going to drama school I studied broadcasting because acting was too physically demanding for me. I realized that storytelling is my real passion and podcasts have really helped me feel connected with the "outside world"

20. Small ceramic plate- before I got into sculpting seriously I worked as a ceramicist's assistant. I find having my hands in clay incredibly cathartic.

21. Precious rings and jewelry.

22. Yellow Ceramic Pot- Made by my dear friend who has been a potter for over 60 years.

23. Round ceramic pot-made by a friend of me and my mother's who passed away earlier this year.

24. Porcelain deer-carrying hair ties on it-I am animal obsessed, my house is full of porcelain animals.

25. Rose Quartz-I don't really believe in the power of crystals but it can't help to try for a bit of love.

26-Vaporizer- Pax 2 dry herb-cannibis is usually my last port of call when the pain gets too much. I can't smoke because of my heart disease but vaporizing helps my body relax if I need it to.

27-Implanted cardiac defibrillator blue tooth machine-another reason why I can't run away and fake my own death-this machine scans my implanted defibrillator every night while I am asleep and it will tell the hospital if there is any cause for concern.

28. Electric hot water bottle- an absolute godsend when I can't move to get up and heat a wheat pack, it takes ten minutes to heat up and it stays hot for at least 4 hours.